There are way too many negative things happening at once. I'd rather not explain them, because I know that there are going to be some people reading them that wont even care, but anyways, they are making me extremely sad and pretty depressed. I've lost interest in the things I loved to do because of this, but I can't stop it. And to those who are thinking so, not it's not drugs or anything like that. I wish everything could just stop here and I could go on living this way. Even though things are already bad now, I wouldn't mind going on like this. It's because I know everything will get worse. I hope I don't worry anyone or make them feel bad with this. I'm not going to hurt myself physically, even though I have a feeling that what I'm doing(which is actually being myself) now is worse that suicide.